A Fantastic Mess of Everything
Author: Beck Medina
Release Date: December 1, 2016
Rating: 3 out of 5 Stars
Millie Alvarez is a college senior with dreams of being a best selling science fiction writer like her favorite author, sci-fi mastermind Luke Danielson. She fantasizes about dating Rod, her handsome, young writing professor, who has a fan base of his own.
Of course no one knows this but her two best friends, Fran and Mike. In the real world, Millie is anything but a success. She always gets casted in the worst roles in her college's musical productions, has a single subscriber to her writing blog, and struggles to be with anyone but Fran and Mike. She even avoids meeting Trent, an exchange student from London who matches with her on the dating app Charmed. Sam always wants to hang out with Millie, but he isn't her type; he's too skinny and happy and won't stop asking Millie about all her favorite things.
But things spiral out of Millie's control when Fran moves out of their dorm room to live with her sister and her estranged dad won't stop calling her to make amends. To top it all off, the pain inside of Millie's chest is worsening. Millie must decide if she's ready to face everything head on. Can she do it? Is she stronger than she thinks she is? All Millie knows is that her life is one big mess that she cannot seem to escape.
Millie is a senior in college trying to find her way in life. She isn't sure what she is going to do after college, but she knows she wants to stay in LA with her best friends, Fran and Mike and try to be a best selling sci-fi writer! When things don't go as planned, can Millie hold it together or will she let it win?
I had such high hopes for this book, but to me it just fell a little flat. I just couldn't connect with Millie. I spent most of the book wanting to yell at her. She came across as such a snotty brat, I couldn't help it. She is supposed to be represented as having anxiety but I just didn't feel it. I have it myself so I understand the feelings but I feel like she just seems to have everything her way or she just shut down.
I liked the premise of the book. I think it has great potential and maybe with a little work on Millie as character, this could be a 5 star book. I liked following the college and all the things that go on there. I also really enjoyed Mike as a character. I felt like he was one of the realist things in the book and made total sense. He was such a great friend to both Fran and Millie and kept a relationship going. I give that man props to be able to pull that off!
Sam! I loved Sam. He was such a sweetheart and he was the reason that I finished the book. His character was wonderful and I think could suck anyone into the pages just for him. He did so much for Millie it was astounding. I understand his reasonings and kept every bit of emotion I know he was also feeling. I could think of this man's smile and never get tired of it.
I like that the author tried to portray anxiety and the dangers it can cause on someone. Panic attacks are real even if most of society seems to think it is just people's cry for attention. I wish that the anxiety in this book felt more real with what was being said, but I do still love the thought.
I feel like the author did pull into herself towards the end of the book. I was dragging to read it through most of it and even thought about giving up on it, but as I stated before, Sam kept me reading. The author eventually gains her stride and ends it on a strong note though I feel it wrapped up a little too quickly I still very much enjoyed the ending. I wish she would have had that amount of emotion and feeling that she put in the last 20% of the book to the whole thing.
I am glad I kept reading and was able to find out what happened. I was able to read the last page of this book with a smile on my face.